like, woaaaaah .

Dang it has been a reaaaallly long time since I've update this thingyy . LOL

My oh my, berhabuk sudah blogku ini . Been really busy with things and life . Gosh !

Where should I start ? Hmm .. Oh yeah !

Here :)

I'm kinda super stoked about New Year cuz I really wanna start fresh and new with 2011 coming around just a few days more. Can't wait what lies ahead for me in 2011 ! :D

Anyways, school has been A-W-E-S-O-M-E ~!

I had so much fun yet balanced with the right amount of stress and tension ofcourse. aha .

Exams were stressing. But its all good I guess ? I didn't failed any of my subjects which is a RELIEVED ! That was kinda my aim with this new college . Atleast for the first semester tho .

Hoping not to fail so that I could do better in my 2nd semester.

Now that I knew I did OKAY for my previous semester, I cannot wait to start school this

3rd Jan ! Kinda very excited, hehe .

Since a new year is just around the corner, I kinda wanna make my own new year's resolutions .

Is it ? Resolutions ? Err, wtv lah . haha

Well, here they are :

1) Gonna be extra rajin ESP when it comes to studying (gotta get awesome grades!)

2) Try not to spend as much money on clothes and etc .

3) Save money ! (also for Swiss Trip :D)

4) Eat less !

5) Exercise more (i'll try my best not to be a lazy ass :P)

I think that's pretty much it ? But I'm sure there are more to come .

Just these popped into my head constantly . LOL

Oh well then, I'm outta words .

I'll update more soon :))

Badaboom !

Hey ho !

I mean, peeps . haha .

Long time no blohg .

Well, I've been busy .

For the first time in like what, a month ?

haha .

This whole week I had orientation at KDU .

Yeas, Imma KDU student now bitch .

hahaha (wtf right?)

Anyways, orientation so far is great !

I mean, really . With the new people around me .

Really makes me feel comfortable . Well, maybe for now la kowt ?

Some are nice, some are ....

I wouldn't say not nice, but shy maybe ?

Idk .

As usual, we all have our own group of friends where we "berkepit" with eachother

most of the time right .

Gah, typical of orientations . haha

Most of us hangs out with the ones yang "satu kepala" with themselves .

Even I have my little tiny group of friends .

First up would have to be Mr. Amir .

He's such a sweetheart . I mean, in a friendly way lah .

He's super friendly and always share things or stories with us .

(Y)

Then there is Mr. Kent .

He is cah ray zeee I tell youuu !

haha . In a good way ofcourse .

I'm glad that we clicked instantly when the first time we met .

Well, not exactly instantly .

Atleast we clicked okay ?!

haha

There are other peers that I hang out with, sometimes, but these two

bastards whom I spent my time in campus the most .

hahaha . (my bad :P )

But so far okay la orientation .

My academic advisor is so nice !

He looks a bit like mario, without the hat .

hahah .

He's just adorable lah :))

Anyways, class is starting next week and my schedule is pretty cramped .

Especially on monday !

Imagine la class from 8am till 7pm .

Awesome right .

No joke man . huhu :'(

Got Malaysian Studies on saturdays but it will be in August .

CULA1 students are divided into 3 groups .

Kent and I are in the same group and he's the president/leader for our group .

I is the secretary . hee :')

But its just a rough decision la .

Or probably it will be confirmed .

Idk lah ! haha

Anywho, Im starting to talk/write crap here .

Imma head off and write some other time .

Don't really feel like blogging but wants too .

Urgh, how's that possible ?

haha .

I'm loosing my mind :)

Isn't he the cutest thing ??!!

So be it

I wouldn't know how you get away without replying my texts . Usually you're like 24/7 with your phone . And if whenever we hang out together, your phone will always be in your hands . But when we're far, what happens ? I waited one whole freaking day for you to reply my text . What if I was admitted to the hospital ? Would you come back immediately and come see me ? I don't think so . The incident that happened to me doesn't really hurt . What hurt is that you never seem to care . Sure your're busy with your "new" life and studies there, but does it take a lot of power just for you to text me ? You know how I am when it comes to communications . Or maybe you don't ? I have to admit, I have no idea what's on your mind right now . Clearly I'm not . I'm not asking you to cling to me all the time but I just wanted to see and to know whether you still care about me . I don't care what you're gonna say if you read this . Cuz I don't know what's going on with you . And don't blame me for saying all this . I'm just expressing how I feel . Is it wrong ? You wouldn't seem to care, right ? So be it . Distance hurts . I hate it . It makes me think negatively about you . Tell me which girlfriend wouldn't think so about their boyfriend ? Well forgive me for "concerning" too much . FYI, that's what I do . I care about you because I love you . I'm just bummed that you never really show or express the way you love me . I wouldn't know . You still don't got the clue ? I'm more like the romantic type . I love to be loved by someone . Its hard for me to truly love someone so consider yourself lucky .

I may look like I'm independent or something, but truth is, I'm not . I need you . I need you by my side . This might sound cheesy, but without you I'm nothing . To me, you're not only my boyfriend but also my best friend . My true best friend . I may not have a lot of friends to hang out with rather than you do . I'm sure you know the reason why . I'm not sure whether I can handle this . I hate being alone and being lonely . It hurts not seeing your name appear on my phone . Well, maybe you're bored with me and needs time to get away from me . I know I'm a trouble for you . You would rather be with your friends instead of with me . I get it . It's just one thing I'm asking . Please don't ignore me . Don't abandon me . I can't live knowing my own boyfriend wouldn't "layan" me . It makes me feel I'm a third wheel between you and your life . Or maybe I am ? I'm sure theres a lot of things on your mind right now .

But just so you know, I risk my life for you . I don't wanna say bad things about you, but I figured its the truth . I'll wait for you no matter how much it hurts . Simply because I'm in love with you .

Maybe I should put this in my bathroom

I've just experienced the most horrifying fall evar !

Well, for me la .

The story goes like this :

Mum called me and asked me to go to the hospital to look over for Ashraf .

He was hospitalized for 3 days cuz of high fever and there was like a virus infection in his blood .

So yeah .

I got ready and then I noticed my sister was at home .

She just got back from her trip to Sabah .

I thought of tagging her along to the hospital but luck was totally not on my side .

I used the bathroom to get to her room, see if shes sleeping or what .

She was .

So be it lah, I thought .

I wanted to walk back to my room but suddenly my foot landed wrongly on the slippery

bathroom floor !!

I didn't fall on my butt nor my face and my other body part didn't hurt a bit .

The scary part of my "horrifying" fall is that I felt that the bone at my knee's ligament

like came out and went back in its place !!

Serious shit, that was scary as hell !

I've experienced it before and that time while playing bowling lagi !

haha .

But this time I was like "trauma" about the fall .

Cuz the impact is like sooooo hard and I thought my knee was gonna patah or what .

I sat on the floor while tightly holding my right knee .

Trying to straighten my leg very very slowly .

Luckily I managed to .

Then quickly put a bag of ice pack on my poor knee .

But I think it's not broken kowt .

Just swollen . I think .

Now I had to walk tempang-ly .

Fugly phrase, I know =.=

haha

Which One ?!

These past couple of weeks I was "kinda" busy with my "preparations" and deciding where I should pursue my studies . Its down between KDU and Taylor's .

Both of the colleges are okay but Taylor's is EPIC !

Epic I tell you ! The campus is like woaahhhh !

It amazes me how modern and elite an institution could be .

They even have like a students lounge with pool and foosball table !

Beat that kan ? haha

Long story short, I'm really into Taylor's campus .

But the thing about Taylor's is that, its degree program is like damn expensive !

Its about RM70k++ for only 2 years !

A big turn off for me laa :(

Cuz I have to continue till my degree and takan la nk continue somewhere else kan ?

That'll be awkward . haha

On the other hand, KDU is not bad . Its also well-recognized .

And the environment is okay .

One thing KDU, its diploma is quite pricey .

I've mentioned it before .

But the degree program pulak yang murah .

haha

Thus, the conclusion is both colleges has its pros and cons .

KDU is nearer to home while Taylor's is quite far and I have to face

the massive traffic on LDP sana .

KDU's diploma is more than Taylor's while Taylor's degree is more pricey than any

other private institution I ever know !

Guess I'm sticking to KDU .

Gotta think of the future also right ?

KDU couldn't be that bad .
I hope *crosses fingers*

Anyways, KDU's intake is on the 5th of July .

That means I have about 1 or 2 weeks time still .

Rehat2 la skjap . aha

I'll shall update more often but am just too lazy :D

19/06/2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME !

19 = OLD

DANG ! =.=

As a favor to my future,

This morning I went to KDU College with Mummy ♥

I guess the best choice for me is there if I'm taking Culinary Arts which I obviously am .

I'm not sure whether I'm in love with the course, but I guess I'll give it a shot .

I was given a second chance, hell yeah I'm NOT gonna screw it up .

Besides, the place looks cool . aha

Went and see the counselor for advises and stuff .

He even gave us a tour around the campus !

Well, not a complete tour, he just showed us the kitchen where

the culinary arts students spend most of their time .

They have 9 kitchens ! Like gampang, I know . haha

The place's cool but the fees ain't .

It will cost me and my family RM46k++

hoyeahhhh .

Better not screw up la sial .

haha

That's basically the total fees I gotta pay for my whole program in KDU .

And the duration is about 2 years .

They even said that there will be a trip to Switzerland during my 2nd year

which is so cooooool cuz KDU is sponsoring all the accommodation and flight tickets .

That's what they say la . We'll just wait and see :')

Bottom line is, this is probably my next institution to pursue my "course" for Culinary Arts .

I wouldn't say career . Too risky . LOL

Anyhow, orientation starts 5th of July, so I still got some time to linger around and chill .

But sadly, Muhd Danish b Saiful Bahri is going to MMU :'(

I hate you b, seriously .

I quit MMU, you masuk .

GREAAAAATTTTTTT :(

After this sumpah I lonely kat sini .

Urghh .

Gotta make new friends . Fuk, I'm running out of friends .

Gah :(

Sungai :)

Yesterday(june 13th), Marissa invited me go Ulu Yam . Pergi mandi manda sungai sanaa . aha . I was kinda surprised cuz it was early in the morning . But what the heck kan ? Lagi pun dah lame gila i x mandi sungai . So, I was pretty excited about it . aha . So, tggu pnya tggu they came and picked me up around 10am or so . Them by mean Ameer Lan, Ejai, Marissa, Iza Izwana and also Danish . It was also my first time going mandi sungai with dear boyfriend, so lagi lah exited ! haha .

Ameer Lan drove Marissa's car . It was quite far . Well, for me la kowt ? Cuz I think that was my first time went to Ulu Yam . If not mesti lah ingat jalan right ? aha . On the way there, sempat singgah Petronas . Everyone bought tidbits to munch during the journey . I just went to the toilet to change my shorts cuz my family chum bising i wore a short . So I changed before leaving the house . But it was my outing shorts, so mmg tak la nak pakai that shorts while swimming in the river kan ?

Then we continued our journey . There were a lot of stops and areas for people to mandi manda . But then the guys decided to mandi near the tangki ?. aha . Ikut je laa, since first time pegi ngn deorg :) Sampai2 je, sume chum tataw whether to mandi sini or somewhere else . Cuz there were groups of people there . But at last we managed to find a spot to hang .

Air sungai sumpah sejuk gila babi !! haha . Sounded so noob . But sumpah best gilaa . haha . Da la we found tmpt chum air flowing down the river . Kire chum a waterfall la . But it was kinda smelly cuz byk gila lumut kt situ . I didn't go to that area cuz before there, the sungai chum dalam gila . Kalah swimming pool pnya depth . haha . But it was cool la . haha . We all just linger in the water smpei kecut . Ejai was being his silly self . Lompat sana, panjat sini . aha .

We mandi dalam lebih kurang 2 hours i think . Then, my body started to itch . So is Ameer Lan . Tup tup tgh syok mandi, titibe hujan renyai . So we decided to stop and call it a day . Sampai je kat kereta, it started to rain heavily . Ejai bukak baju tgk his body penuh ngn ala2 mosquito bite . Byk gle ! Tgk pun bulu roma naik . But unfortunately he wasn't the only one yg kene . I had them too ! But not as bad as Ejai's la . Kat my stomach kne, my legs . Serious gatal gle babi .

Since at that area doesn't have a toilet for us to change, we decided to head down back to check out whether there's a public toilet ke ape . Then we stop at this one place . Tmpt tu actually kne bayar, but sume bwat bodoh je . Masuk2 jalan menuju ke arah toilet . haha . lawak gle . Then we mandi beramai-ramai kt luar toilet tu cuz we found there was a pipe for us to mandi laa . With clothes on that is . Marissa, Ejai, Iza and I pun mandi lah basah2 kan badan there . When its time to change, I realized that my shirt tade in my bag ! Panic gle kowt !

I told Danish that my shirt might be in Marissa's car cuz maybe chum terjatuh ke ape . Then he lend me his shirt . haha . Got to the car and the shirt was there . So careless of me . aha

It was tiring but I had loads of fun ! Just relaxing mandi sungai with friends . haha . But unfortunately pictures weren't taken since all of us were swimming in the river . But nevermind lah, the memories that counts .

Thank you, you guys for inviting me ! I had a blast ! :')

Fuck My Life !

I feel like crying my heart out and killing myself !

urghh

8to8 @ Kelab Darul Ehsan

Jalan jam teruk gila from Duke to Ampang =.=

Sempat bervaining lg . aha :P

The whole outlook of our little shop .


Oreo Soft Cake :')
Was price tagging 'em before snapping this pic


KDE's chicken chop . Damn expensive but luckily its delicious .
Picture taken afta I ate half of it . haha

I'm in LOVE

with these kind of videos . the creator's a genius :')

ps: these were the smallest size on the youtube embed thingy .

i have no idea how to make it smaller =.=(via google chrome)

I hate

• being away from you
• not knowing where you are
• not having credit to talk or text you
• not talking or texting you
• not being with you
• you talking to other girls privately
• it when awkwardness is in our way
• fighting and arguing with you
• it when you're in a bad mood, makes me in a bad mood
• it when I think of bad stuff about you
• it when we don't spend time together
• it when I miss you, makes me feel really lonely
• when you don't text me back
• the times when you're busy
• it when I feel as though I'm not good enough for you
• the fact I couldn't go a day without texting you
• the fact you make me fall even more in love every single day

Though there are more things I hate, but they're all the good things .

ily b :')

June's

definitely not my month . I hate having a bad start at anything and everything . Once you're at a bad start, you'll know how the end's gonna be . I so don't need this right now . Sooner or later, I might not know who my real self is . Like seriously . I'm always angry and frustrated for no apparent reason . I think I'm gonna loose myself . Emotional breakdown . haha

Gosh, I HATE MY LIFE !

Why ? Semua serba tak kene ! Life, studies, future, friends, relationship . You name it . I feel like such a big mess and hell I don't know where to start gaining back my life properly .

Earlier this evening my brother was like advising me about I should just quit MMU and take other courses at any U or college . He was practically asking me to take Culinary Arts . I don't mind . He said I didn't put enough effort during my studies in MMU . So basically, I've wasted one whole fucking year for being such an lazy ass . Yes people . Its a good thing for me to leave MMU cuz I don't really fancy the environment there either . At this point, I don't give a fuck about my studies anymore . Cuz I don't know what course to take or what I'm gonna do to further my studies . I'll just leave it to them . At least I get a second chance . Alhamdulillah :')

Well, that's one thing good la kowt ? One down, a gazillion more good things to go .

Lady luck is so not on my side .

Oh, one more thing for YOU . Yes YOU .

Call me selfish, I don't care . But I've waited too long for some moments but my hopes were too high . Eventhough I knew how the story's gonna be . Because I am so stubborn, I wait . Patiently I wait . There will come at a point where I might quit at what I was waiting for. But for now I won't . Simply because .

!st Day of June

Goodbye May, Hello Dear June ! aha . I'm feeling kinda exited towards this month . I wonder why la kan ?? *kening2* haha . Its that time of month again where I'd suppose to feel special and mature about myself . Pffttt ! haha . Long story short, me birthday is coming up ! :') 18 more days to go . hee

I'm not sure whether I should be counting days till my birthday, but I can't help but to feel exited bout the "big day" . I really don't know what to expect this year . But all my birthdays before this are just plain normal . Nothing that special or memorable . Except for last year though . I get this sweet small surprise by my love . Comel jea the cake . hehe .

Better not expect anything right ? But I did told my mum that I wanted a DSLR camera . God, those things are awesome ! I told my mum that I would rather carry around a DSLR rather than a handbag . haha . Well, the DSLR is one of the things I would want for my birthday this year . I think this year I have the most "expensive" wishlist . haha

Birthday Wishlist 2010 :-

1) a DSLR camera

2) iPhone

3) iPod Touch

4) a White Suzuki Swift

5) Lots and lots of MONEY

Well, aren't these things expensive ? I wish I could fulfill all my wishes . But memang tak dapat la jack . haha . Harapan jea la . Kalau dapat one of them pun tape . Since I've only told my mum that I wanted #1, probably I'll get that one je la kowt ? aha . Farah, don't keep your hopes too high . Keep it low, really low .

Anywho, I don't really mind what I'll be getting for my birthday this year . Bersyukur je la ngn ape yang dapat, right ? I just hope for a smooth sailing journey this June . Just hope that everything's gonna be alright .

Okayyy, suddenly I'm out of words . Dang it ! Td fikir mcm2 . haha . Wtv la . I'll post it another time . Toodles people xoxo

Cupcake Days

Today I went to Bake with Yen in Puchong for the Cupcake Decoration Class . Yes, it is way in Puchong . Left the house at 9.30 am and arrived there exactly 10 am . Luckily I wasn't late andwasn't the only one that's late . aha . I is very tired to type bout everything that happened so, I is gonna let you see pictures ! haha

They provide the cupcakes and even showed us how to bake 'em !

The class . There were less than 15 people . But hell lot of cupcakes . aha


These are mocha flavored cupcakes . The instructor showed us how to bake plain and moist choc cupcake but I didn't get the chance to snap the pics . heh

I think this was the time that the instructor was

showing us how to do the icinngs and frostings .


Down here are the decorations I made during the class .
hee :')
There were like 20 different designs, but malas nk upload :P